JesuFreek

My thoughts are consumed by you and your love. My feelings for you grow stronger each day. Can't seem to pay attention in any classes. For you're the only one I want to be taught by.** You take my breath away each time you hold me. My heart skips a beat each time you kiss me. Without you, not sure what I would do. You mean so much to me, never want to let you go. This feeling inside is one I've never felt. But I can tell that it is okay. My love for you is so strong and great. Without you, I just don't know what I would do. Leslie Ann Beach 12/02/04 **Kinky!! ^^ lol :D sorry...i just had to add that.

A battle for the souls of earth. A battle and war that would seal the fate of every human being. Silently, it had raged on for millions of years between heaven and hell. Until now, it was a war that had gone on almost unseen to the human rance. Now, the war was not only in the hearts and souls of the human race. It was a physical fight; believers against none-believers. God's children against the damned souls of earth. A fight that would change many peoples' lives, forever. It all began one fine April morning. It was the year 2214 and the world was a mess to begin with. Ever since the 2001, the governments of earth had exploaded in wars that

Wishing you could be here holding me in your arms. Wishing you could be here to wipe my tears away. Wishing you could be here to take away my pain. Wishing you could be here to kiss me tonight. Waiting for you here, alone and hoping for your call. Lost without your guiding light, I hide in the darkness. I need you now more than I've ever needed you. Wondering where you have gone. Wanting you to take me away from this place. Wanting you to take my endless pain away. Knowing that you are always here for me. Still wondering where you have gone. Missing you now more than ever. Wishing that you were here by my side. My heart has stop

You say that you're a friend. But I can see the truth. You only care about you, And what best benifits you. I thougth I could depend on you. I now see I've been proven wrong. You only care what's best for you. Only your happiness seems to matter. Why can't you see beyond yourself? Why must you be so selfish? I thought that you were a true friend. But it seems you've shown me different. Leslie Ann Beach 12/03/04

So I'm here again. Wondering when. You'll take me away. Never to stay. Compleatly lost. At my own cost. Don't know what to do. Need to depend on you. Hurting inside. Because I lied. I'm just as bad. And continually sad. I don't know what to do anymore. My heart and soul are sore. Don't wanna loose this war. Fighting down to the core. Leslie Ann Beach 12/04/04

Just want to be alone now. Secluded in my room alone. Away from everyone. To not deal with anything. Just some time to myself. That is all I ask. To be able to think this all through. And see where God is leading me. Time to sit back and relaxe. And think of nothing but me. Time to consintrate on myself. So that I can just be me. Continuously doing something. Continuouly with someone. Never get to think of me. Everyone else takes up my time. Just tell me when I'll get my time. To think of me and my well being. Time to figure out who I am. And what I'm ding in life. Leslie Ann Beach 12/04/04

I'm going to fall asleep. And there's nothing you can do. I'm going to fall to the depths. But you wont be able to catch me. 'Cause it's my turn to choose my path. And say which way I'm going. I say now I'm going down. And now you cannot stop me. I'll take myself down. However I want. This is my choice. You can't talk me out. One little push is all I need. To take the step of my fate. It's my life; I'll do as I please. Don't think you can change my decision. Leslie Ann Beach 12/04/04

Can't you see I'm running from you. Because I want to be alone. Why can't you just leave me be. To die in my own little corner. I've told you already it's my choice. I can do whatever I please. Understand you can't change my past. I'm simply destined to suffer. I'm avoiding you with all my might. Don't feel like seeing you now. This is my last attempt to get away. To take away all the pain. Leslie Ann Beach 12/04/04

I could take the blades. And I could slit my wrists. And I could wait to die. And show them all the truth. Three inches away from reach. One vein away from reliefe. But Jesus took three nails. And one cross to save me. Hard to go on without a perpouse in life. Hard to not cry and totally give up. Tired of trying at everything now. Just want it all to go away. Tired of trying to live. Tired of trying to make them happy. Tired of trying to have a future. Tired of trying to make it all work. Tired of trying to keep the harmony. Tired of trying, period. Just wish I could give up and die. And fall asleep forever more. Nothing's

When will people stop betraying me? When will people stop letting me down? When will people stop lying to me? When will they all just face up to me? When will they all just tell me the truth? When will they all just accept me? When will I be able to talk in front of them? When will I be able to tell them my deepest secrets? When will I be able to talk to them like they want? If they would just give me one reason to do so. If they would just give me one reason to live. If they would just give me one reason not to kill myself. Why does everyone I meet end up hating me? Why can't I keep a friend for over a year? Why do I end up lo

Hug me Hold me Squeeze me tight Cuddle me Nuzzle me All through the night Tease me Please me The pleasure is mine Kiss me Miss me This evening time Taste me Waste me I'm an object to you Use me Abuse me All night through

If my blood Splattered to the ground, Would you run, Leave me unfound? Would you leave And let me be Or would you stay And set me free? And if I took My knife again, To slice my skin And numb the pain, Would you stay, And hold me tight, Ridding me Of sin and fright? And if I tore My veins apart, Would you give me You're gentle heart? Even if You were too late To save me from My own self-hate? And if I lay In a hospital bed Would you come And stroke my head? Would you stay, And hold me tight, Ridding me Of sin and fright? And if I took My knife again, To slice my skin And numb the pain, Would you take My

I a-wait for the fireworks Of your tender kiss, My lips all ache For that everlasting bliss. I tingle for the warmth Of your fingers between mine; The comfort, the reassurance As our hands entwine Your arms envelope me And caress me again. You burn so bright, My blazing flame Whisper to me now Sing your hopes in my ear, For you can protect me As long as you're here...

The cold, hard hit of betrayal, Stolen away, the happy days, Time flies past me, The world now a tear-filled haze. Arrogance, conceit, insensitivity, Selfish behaviour, what does it achieve? The perfect world crowding in, Suffocating, I cannot breathe. Save me from the temptation, Help me live my life, Change me, shape me, Make me normal, free from strife. I wear the smile, I show the grin, Yet the pain, Creeps slowly in…